It wasn't even close. I not only lost to all the "cheaters" in the karaoke contest, I was fourth place out of the non-cheating, low-vote-getting losers. That's like not even being allowed to ride on the short bus.
Sad, sad, sad.
I decided over the weekend that I would rise above all the petty squabbling of last week and hang my head high, knowing that I did my best and that it didn't matter what public opinion says I know in my heart that I gave sweet, delicious karaoke stylings and that's all that matters.
But then, later in the weekend, I thought, "Fuck that."
I want to be petty.
So, basically, it sucks. I'm mad and upset and I will never forgive anyone who dared beat me or vote against me in this contest. It should have been mine. All weekend, I broke stuff in my house. I kicked the cat around a few times. I prank called people in the karaoke contest:
Frankly, I blame all of you for not voting. First Al Gore, now this. Aren't you people ashamed of yourselves?
I was so sad over the weekend, that I decided to express myself in the only way I know how. Through interpretative dance.
After that, I decided to toss off a poem, too.
WHY THE BASTARDS WON INSTEAD OF ME
A Poem. By Omar
thought in my heart my karaoke was tight,
practiced for days, I sang it all night,
Pamie, some guy goes by Fred,
now it's all over, I've been so greatly wronged,
blame all you bastards, you foolish ignobles,
bad, evil people. You hurt me like daggers,
now it has passed, has the hurt gone away?
next time you enter, try to win something nice,
my lost darkest hour, in a time of great need,
now here I sit, with my tasty "Ike" song,
Not that I'm bitter.
For those you of you who asked about my Mom's health over the weekend, thanks. She's doing a lot better. On Saturday, I went home and presented her a birthday gift a personal spa. It's basically a bath mat with a little motor and it makes heated bubbles. It also has a floating remote controller. Even better: It has cool little spiked footrests that you can rub your footsies on. Quite the luxury item.
I always have a horrible time shopping for Mom because ... well, I don't know why. I think Moms in general are tough to buy gifts for. I mean, this is the person who birthed you who went into labor to bring your slimy little ass into the world. How does a bouquet of flowers, even nice ones, come close to repaying that?
The best compliment I got on the gift, though, was my Mom saying that she had seen the little personal spa in a circular and had been wanting to buy it. Any gift that somebody was about to go plunk some cash for is typically a well-timed gift.
My grandparents were in town, too, and the whole spa thing turned into a funny discussion of an incident I don't remember.
When I was 11, the story goes, and we were living in Mississippi, my parents decided to have a relaxing and romantic evening.
The made sure my little brother, who was maybe a year old, was safe. They made sure I was asleep. Then they drew up some bubbles and got their bathtub groove on.
So there they are, I guess immersed in bubble bath together with candles and such (they're my parents, ya'll. Let's not get too visual here), and whispering to each other about whether they were going to wake the kids up and whether we could hear them.
At some point, I guess when they were tired of being all cramped and wrinkly in the tub, they were going to get out. But, uh oh, there were no towels.
My mom whispered to my dad, "We don't have any towels!"
And my little 11-year-old ass yells from outside the door, "I'll get them!"
So, I've gotten in the steady habit of updating on Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays, but I completely missed the boat yesterday. So it looks like a Tuesday/Thursday Terribly Happy kind of week.
I was at the South by Southwest Interactive festival all day Sunday and Monday, hanging out with Pamie, Wing Chun, Kim and Stee, who are prime specimens of humans who are good to be around. This is the inverse of humans you don't want to associate with, like say Pol Pot, or Hitler or the guy with the poison Kool-Aid.
The whole weekend was a blur of activity, from heading to San Antonio to be with the family to trying to hit the SXSW panels (one of which I moderated to talk about what video games will be like in the future: The conclusion was they'll be online. Yay.) and having various dinners/drinks with all the fine friends who are in town this week.
Sunday night, I was up until 2 a.m. trying to complete a revision on an LCP skit.
I find myself in a weird zone where not only am I not getting enough sleep, but there's no possible way I can see myself achieving sleep any time in the next week. My body is protesting by making my bones ache and giving me occasional headaches like, "Hey! Asshole! I need sleep, here! Find a pillow, take off those pants, and make with the zzzz's already! You're not an amphetamine addict, so would you stop living like one?"
But even when I go to bed, I still find myself lying there, thoughts abuzz, going over the list of things I didn't get to that day. This week, between SXSW, rehearsals, work (yes, I still have to go to work this week) and Terribly Happy (which got a full big-screen plug at the festival during a "Humor on the Web" panel thanks to a former co-worker friend of mine), sleep just has ceased to be an option. It's like grabbing a slice of bread on your way out the door because you know you need food. There's no pleasure or flavor to this sleep. It's just a means to the end of waking up the next morning and getting back on that monstrous To Do list that seems especially long this week.
I keep hearing "The Tourist" by Radiohead. I hear Thom wailing in my ear, "Hey, man... slow down... slow down."
And I can't. It's scary because being this busy and overwhelmed is a high in itself. When the week is over, and I know this will happen because I've experienced it dozens of times, I'll look back and be proud of my little productive self. I'll be amazed at how much I got done, how it all worked out and how I successfully juggled 13 different jobs and activities in the space of a few days.
And, usually it turns out that none of it suffers in terms of quality.
But I suffer a little. My body loses sleep. My diet loses non-microwaved fresh food. My already shaky stamina loses the one or two nights of going to the gym I might have had otherwise. And the people who I work with and am close to who are around all the time have to put up with my busy-bee flightiness as I flit from one act of pollination to the next.
I'm not a train wreck.
But I am a bit of an Amway car speeding at a hundred miles an hour, narrowly averting a derailing.
Oh, hey, did I say Amway? I meant Amtrak.
You see? Lack of sleep.
All the smell you've come to expect without all the frilly amenities of regular hotels.